I used to think it was odd. I didn’t care much. I understand it a little better now. My coat is my only friend. My hammock wraps me like a turquoise and grey cocoon while I hold the plaid garment, wishing it meant more than it did. Yellow, navy,
Before We Begin This is not a warning. It’s an orientation. This book contains scenes, language, and thought patterns that reflect periods of intense distress, self-deprecation, and self-punishment. Some passages are reproduced exactly as they were experienced or recorded at the time they occurred. They are not meant to
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INTRODUCTION Intro all in0:00/80.8947291× Everyone needs someone, for something, sometimes, but it doesn't have to be a specific someone all the time. The thing I believe in most? Love. We all have different needs. We are different people with different skills—and different weaknesses. I
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My family started dying. As people tend to do. Most of us try to procrastinate about it. We stall. We pretend it isn’t happening. Others—the real ones, I thought then—do something about it. If there was a way to stop it, that had to be it. In
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Good boy0:00/226.2237081× "You don't need me, you're strong enough on your own. You're a bad ass" "I don't feel like it, thank you ..." I stop It's cold Like a shattered crystal stem wine
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When silencemeans everythng part 10:00/394.3181861× I didn't know where to go, ever ... Mostly I just sort of walked around singing, chewing gum. I like love songs most, I like to focus on the voices. I like to sing with them. They are nice to me,
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The cop didn't question my medicine, so that was good—odd, I thought… but good. Also, he really didn't hassle me all that much, which was unusual. Typically, I am a little more tame when it comes to encounters with the police than my friends, but
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He steps off me and sinks into the bed. I glance over to look him in the eyes. “Let him up.” He smiles wide—teeth bare, dimples—cute in a way. The men release their grasp, as they stand simultaneously, though over me still. I tik and tilt my head.
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Limping down the steps backwards I close the door as we leave. The girl has already found her way to the yard. I'm a little slower than her. For some reason I don't feel well, but it's not my leg. I know what adrenaline
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Breathe inward muscles tense legs spread shoulder width apart it hurts to move even slowly though, that’s the point I’ve gone too far I can't stop now but I can focus Breathe Tai Chi has taught me a lot. You’re supposed to do it relaxed.
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My knowledge of anything is useless when I forget everything It was how he died it was how they died it was how we died in the woods in the field in a building alone but no one forgot not even the new dogs that weren't there when
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Everybody has hobbies. Everybody has interests. Everybody has opinions. Everybody has dreams... Unless you don’t. Then they’re beat out of you. My dream as a kid? Normal. That’s it. Simple, right? Though — how many of us actually are normal? I don’t think I’ve ever met